Blog II

The most important thing in my life is family. I realized that without them I wouldn’t have anything. If I lost that love my family has given me and taught me, I don’t know how I would live with myself. When we all knelt down in a circle with Stephen in the middle, praying for Stephen’s marraige and him, I felt that nothing could break this unity, nothing could harm us. Whenever I am angry, I always try and remember my mom. Even through her cancer, she could let that sadness and anger bundle up insider of her, but she just grins and bears it. Always chipper, upbeat, and happy, nothing slows her down. When anything happens it builds like sometimes you can feel the happiness bundle up inside of you, feeling like it’s just about to explode out of you. Or the anger inside of you buidling when the anger comes you just have to stop it, let someone else feel that pain and feeling, let them carry it for you. Whether you can see it or not, there is a beauty in something building; it doesn’t have to get bigger or louder. When our family was made it started from something very small. When I look at my family I know my mom has created this magnificent thing that no one else can break or touch. You may feel that you have to stray from your family but when it comes down to it, you realice that they have gone through the same thing. Sometimes I think only if I could be more like my mom to have so much drive, and passion, and to have such an outlook of the world. If I could only feel what she feels. Let her know how I feel and me knowing how she feels, but how can I do this when I hardly know what I’m feeling. I would write more just to let my mom know how I feel but I just can’t find the words to say it. All I know is I have the Greatest mom in the world and I could not have anymore love for her.